LordPint

I've lost my mind I've gone insane I keep stabbing myself in the arm but I dont feel the pain Thats deep inside... my heart when we said good bye who knew it would be for the last time... Eyes Open Wide Now Never going to sleep again Everything is going to be okay, right? I keep wandering around these halls these long and distant walls They keep whispering empty threats "Never going to escape" Whispering hollow hopes "There might be a way out" Where is my rabbit hole? Where did my magic pills go? The bars on those windows wont hold me...              forever? Why did you leave me here...              alone?

(Names have been changed so I won't get beat up by bigger and stronger people than I, and the actual dates have been left out because I just can't remember them.)            A person's opinion or perception of another is so easily changed that there are parts of ourselves that we hide from the world.  A person might hide an illness so that they aren't pitied or treated differently.  Someone might hide the fact that they are cross gender, homophobic, or even gay just to avoid unpleasant questions and conversation.  In my case the bit of information that I keep secret is that I am on probation for the 3rd time.  Doesn't sound like much, does

I live in a world where things hurt... Where you dont always get your way or what you want... Where working for it, takes years not days or months... Where Mommy & Daddy never bail you out or hand over large sums of cash... Problems dont just disappear they only get worse... Bills pile up... Things get out of hand... You try your best and fail... You look forward to the little things cuz big things are just out of your grasp... LIFE is not a game but a day to day battle field... I want to be mad at you for what you have and what you'll get and the easy life you lead. But I cant, thats not right of me. Its not your fault everything